An Open Letter to My True Love

24 August 2011

I wrote this letter because I cannot contain the feelings that I have for You. Every day of my life, the feeling gets stronger. I’m sorry this is the only way to show You how I feel for You…for now.

I’ve been so blessed since I’ve met You in my life. Thank You for accepting me as I am. Thank You for loving me wholeheartedly. I feel so special in Your eyes. You always give me the best of everything.

You are always there when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I needed someone to talk to. Yes, You are always there- especially in the darkest moments of my life. I haven’t heard You complain though at times, I often forget to thank You for always being there. There are even times that I pour out my anger towards You yet You are still there to restore me and say “Everything is going to be alright.” You love me so much that Your anger lasts only for a moment but Your favor lasts for a lifetime.

Thank You for healing my wounded heart and for helping me move on from my shattered past. If my heart wasn’t broken, I would never have met You. Life without You would be unbearable or should I say, unimaginable.

You complete me. You are the missing piece in this puzzling life that I’ve been searching for every single day. I never felt any insecurity when I’m with You because all I feel is being perfect in Your eyes. The perfect skin, the perfect hair, and the perfect smile. I never felt so beautiful since I met You especially when You said that I am wonderfully made. Every time we have some quite time (and I’m sorry, I know I should spend quite time with You every day), I feel home because You are home for me, and I know that one day, I will be with You in the perfect place that You have prepared for me.

I’ll take this chance to tell You that I really feel so protected in Your arms. I always remember the time when I was in the mountains during one of the journeys in my life, seeking answers to my questions, I was baffled, I want to go home, but I can’t cross the mountains and I don’t know what to do. I thought I can change my destiny but what happened was reversed, my destiny changed me. I thought I was all alone (because I really chose to be alone thinking that nobody understands me except for myself) but You were there! My focus is on the mountains, I never notice Your presence, and that You were behind me and said, “I know You’re tired, come, Trust me, My love will never fail You.” I hated my life and yelled “I don’t need You!” but then You gently replied “I will never leave You, even if you want to.” These words crushed my stone cold heart. I kept the faith because of You, until now, I’m keeping it. It never failed me. Your encouragement and Your presence enabled me to cross “the mountains”.

I gave up and let You lead the way. Things are getting better now. If I only allowed You to lead the way earlier, I never would have had the bruises from that journey. But no regrets, because I learned… I learned and felt how much You care for me and now I realized how much I needed You. Today, I can still remember it because of the scars but I can no longer remember the pain that it brought me… and it’s all because of You.

I always pray that every day of my life, every thought, emotion and action that I have would be all because of You.

Thank You for changing my heart. Thank You for loving me.

You are the father that I’ve always wanted. The brother that I never had and the lover that I always searched for.

Life without You can never be called life and I always want for You to allow me to serve You with every single breath that I have.

I love You Jesus, My only Lord and Savior.

Malou

At the office

THE BOSSES
Dir. Marta M. Hernandez (left) Dir. Maria Susan P. Dela Rama

This was held at the McKinley in Taguig, this is actually a despedida for Dir. Marty who was assigned on a different department. This is also in gratitude for her taking care of the media relations concerns. When i learned about his, i got worried because i dont know whos going to evaluate me with my internship. Later then i realized that shes still my internship supervisor since on the first place, she was the one who gave me the instructions at the office, she was also the one who gave me those tasks i have discussed earlier. Thank God He gave me Boss Marty who was so kind and is so understanding.

WAAH!

Grabe ang araw na ito, taranta kung taranta. Thank God. pinirmahan na ni Boss Marty ang evaluation ko, sya daw kasi ang internship supervisor ko sabi ni Boss Patti at hindi sya. pumirma din naman si Boss Patti, pero siniguro nya munang nakapirma si Boss Marty, buti nalang likas na mabuti ang kalooban ni Boss Marty at pumirma din naman agad. Maloloka na ko, lalo pag hindi ako naka-graduate, may aaplayan pakong trabaho after nito dahil wala na ko sa telus. nakow,. may bayarin pa sa bahay, may Sir Mart pang dapat intindihin. May Bayad pa sa skul for graduation. WAAAAAAAAHH Problema!!! Duwag ka! kung matapang ka, isa-isa nyo akong lapitan huwag sabay-sabay!!!! PERO GOD IS GREATER THAN ANYTHING ELSE. I put my faith in him. For I can do all things with God who gives me strenght. AMEN!

MY TESDA FAMILY
Sir Rod, Boss Marty, Boss Patti, Te Aubrey, yours truly, Sir Rinzi and Sir Roger.

I'm dead tired after work. I have to go to internship to complete this 200-hour requirement. Its not easy to handle everything. I was expecting that my previous Bosses will allow me to consider the working hours I had with them when I was still an employee here at TESDA but it its okay, my Boss still gave me a different arrangement which is to allow me to have my Certificate of Completion if its needed to be submitted already and then I’ll just complete the remaining hours after that. Blessed indeed.

Here are the assignments that my Boss instructed me the term:

TASKS FOR MALOU: 1. Prepare a summary list of news clippings on TESDA/TVET/Education by month; 2. Prepare a summary list of success stories and best practices submitted by regions; 3. Gather information from various TESDA offices for the preparation of press releases; 4. Coordinate and make arrangements with concerned TESDA offices are the DG’s TV/radio guestings/tapings and coverages of TESDA facilities and activities; 5. Perform other tasks that maybe assigned from time to time And i was so thankful that by God's grace, I was able to complete these things.

Never apply for a job na walang TULOG!!!

Isa lang to sa MGA nangyari.

(siguro dahil sa puyat, lumilipad na sa abroad utak ko)

…after na maipasa ang computer exam…

Interviewer: “Are you planning to go abroad?” “Yes Sir, “

- “Where?”

- “In Israel Sir,”

- “Huh? Why?” (nagulantang din sya sa sagot ko, ako din eh nagulat)

- “For a mission Sir.”

(wow! Ano to luisa?!!! Kulang nalang naka-fatigue ako muka nakong sundalo)

Interviewer: “Uh-okay.”

RESULT: “Will try to call you tom if ever you passed this interview”

= walang tumawag kinabukasan =

The Reason

I was trying to look for the reason;

dying to search for the truth.

I was mourning looking for the reason;

Bleeding to hear the truth.

I was weeping after I found the reason;

cause it led me to where the truth is.

I was renewed when I found the reason;

cause I realized...

every tries...

every mourn...

every weep...

led me to the truth that I was looking for...

the truth was just there

it was in my eyes

I never thought because of the lies

that my life has lived

in the sins of below the skies

the truth was within me

cause the truth WAS in my heart

and my heart was not able to hear

cause my ears WERE shut

my eyes WERE close

my mind was dead

He told me the reason

He showed me the reason

He is looking at me since it has began

Because the reason,

was the cause

and the cause

was ME

Experiential report during the campaign

Ma. Luisa B. De Veyra

BCR IV-1D

Experiential Report

“With money you can buy a house, but not a home;

A clock but not a time;

A bed but not sleep;

A book but not knowledge;

See a doctor but not a good health;

But a position but not respect;

Blood but not life;

Sex but not love;

Travel, BUT NOT EXPERIENCE.”

It was a wonderful experience to be part of a campaign that aimed to educate young individuals of what media literacy is. I even consider myself very blessed enough to have the program held at our school. My alumni, Makati High School. I felt like I was able to hit two birds at one stone: project completion and at the same time, to return to my sanctuary of knowledge.

It is where I started to mold my character as a person. It is where I learned to stand on my own. My groupmate didn’t know that as I became their tour guide and when we reached the old canteen, I remembered that it is where I worked as a part-time canteen personnel who is earning Php50.00 /day of work from 1 PM until 6 PM (which was after class). It is where I first tasted a “wage” after a hard day’s work. It is a place where I learned to become tough as a leader and soft as a writer (which is a tough secret). It is where I was able to know my strenghts and weaknesses, where I grew as an individual, competed as a student, developed as a person. It is where, my most valuable and precious experience…where kept as a treasure.

I am not saying these things to let everyone know what my struggles, joy and happiness where during high school, Im including these in my report because I never thought that the campaign will cogitate all these memories that I though will be kept in vain after our graduation.

With the campaign itself, I know that I wasn’t able to fulfill my duties as a member when it comes to group meeting (which I admit would be my weakest point since I’ve started paying taxes) but deep within me, I know that I gave my best ‘during’ the campaign and I am happy that I was able to accomplish my part at that time. I am also blessed (which I always am) when it comes to the people within the group whom I never heard said something against me (as far I as I know :D) especially with the things that I am not capable of doing (I know I am capable its just that….nah…I don’t want to reason out any further). :D

The best part? I am happy that I was given a chance to be one of the program host. It was fun!

Makati High School…It is where I found my friends, met my competitor who eventually became friends and first felt love (yeah, I just don’t look like I fell in love during that time but I always do –and I mean, Always). Polytechnic University of the Philippines, where I found my colleague, friends and pepole who shaped my maturity and who gave me a chance to go back to my alumni. I didn’t discuss much about the subject here – media literacy, because given na yan eh, content ba? Alam na natin na malaman yan! Gawang PUPian eh, Gawang BCR, Gawang IV-1D! May dapat pa bang talakayin diyan?

It was a wonderful experience. I was able to give my best, and I saw two worlds where I came from and where I am now leaving – from the world of being young, now at being a young adult and looking forward to be a matured individual (who’ll soon pay more taxes). Because of the campaign, I saw my self like a turtle, returning to the place where it first hatched.

It was another unforgettable experience that I will be treasure…for all the days of my life. Thank you Sir Mart, thank you for the schools who declined our first requests and thank you to the only One who allowed these things to merged and became a wonderful experience – to Him who deserve all the praises and Glory – The Most High, God.