"...I don't wanna be there..."
This was taken from song of Mr. Gary Valenciano. He performed this at the stage and everytime he reaches this part of the song, I am touched. The song goes like this, someone feels like he is a dark pit and feels like she was all alone with no one to share her thoughts with and it is only with God when that person has been freed from that fark pit. And after that, the person now always ask for God's guidance for her to be able to cope up with life's tests and she always tells God that She doesn't want to be there in that dark pit.
Sounds like I was that person huh?
haha. Well, maybe. Its how I felt when Mr. Pure Energy sang that.
That's my interpretation.
You know, sometimes, there are times in our lifes that we feel like we are all alone in the battle. Like no one hears our cry, our voice, like nobody listens and nobody is there to comfort you and just so amazing that the message that I have hear from our Pastor, Pastor Tan Chi was very clear. If you will expect everything here on earth, you will just be disapointed. i learned a lot of things this past few days and I don't even know how to share those things. Going back, if you will expect everything here on earth, YOU WILL JUST BE DISAPPOINTED.
for examples:
1. If you expect that your earthly will be with you as you grow, you'll just be disappointed. My father left us for another woman and the worst, he left us without anything to start on to.
2. If you expect that your brother will be your protector if your father will leave, you'll just be disappointed. My brother married at an early age. But, I don't blame him for falling in love and having its fruit at the age of 23.
3. If you expect that your friends will stay with you, you'll just be disapppointed because for me, some will just come...and leave you like you never were...friends.
4. If you expect that you can maintain honor? You'll just be disppointed. Since i was a kid, i thought i could maintain the state of being an achiever. Not until I reached the point when I had a failing mark. Feels like i don't know where to start OR should i still continue? Life has no meaning after that for me. Not until I realize that i should not expect from getting a high grades since i am a working student. The reason why i wanted to have high grades is because i wanted to change to impression that if you are a working student, it will be an excuse for you to have a lot of failing mark. But I realized, I cannot make history after all...I am just an ordinary human...capable of failing. So be it. i am a working student and i have a faling mark.
5. if you expect life will be about WORK-MONEY-POWER relationship, you will be disppointed. Why? Because life is not about it. Life is about finding God's purpose of placing you where you are right now.
But here's the thing:
If you will expect that you have a FATHER in heaven who LOVES you immeasurably, who knows all you need, and provide you everything, you will just feel like you are the most BLESSED daughter/son here on earth.
But If you will expect that aside from that, you got a BROTHER who is always there to defend you, support you and to give you advice, WOW! what a happy feeling you'll have to be the younger child.
But if you will expect that you have a BESTFRIEND who is always there to listen to you, to comfort you at times of distress and who is always there to give you and advice on all your problems and is always there to show you that YOU ARE NEVER ALONE. My friend, you would rather expect who am I describing here.
If you will expect that in life, its not about the honors, the medals, ther certificates or the awards that you have received that will measure how good you are. It is about how you utilize that knowledge, talent, abilities for making others feel how blessed they are that someone offered His Life for us to use these gifts.
And if you will expect that life is all about doing God's purpose for you, glorifying Him with the way you do everything, making him happy by knowing Him more for you to be able to share it with others and above all, knowing that He is the AUTHORITY...you will see... my friend, problems will be of no place in your life. Although challenges are everywhere, if you know that you have a GREAT GOD, you have to fear no one except for Him.
Remember, Psalm 56:
“In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust;
I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?”
What can man do to me? NOTHING.
I have GOD. A Father, a Brother, a Bestfriend, a Teacher, and a GREAT GOD.
I know for myself that God is always there for me cause...
I don't wanna be there.
