Saturday morning, Sept.26,2009, I woke up early because i know that we are having our rehearsal for our finals in world literature subject major in theatre arts (",). Fortunately/Unfortunately? I don't know, that the moment i have stepped off my feet outside the dormitory, it was already raining cats and dogs. My groupmates, Dolly, Shiela and Jessica were already waiting at school and i just don't know what to do. I called Dolly to tell her the situation and i can feel it on her voice that she seems upset or what. Afterwards, i decided to go out despite the fact na even TESDA brick plaza was already flooded and a guard house in the navy was uprooted na parang kamote na nabunot, thank God at nakatalon ang guard na nasa loob to save himself. So I went out and conquered the heavy rains, wala namang kidlat, no problem, kaso hindi rin pala.

When I reached the gate, the cars, trucks and jeepneys were not moving anymore. they were all stuck on the road. a man with this two big plastic bags (paninda daw nya) told me that in Bonifacio area, the flood was already up to the chest. Naaawa ako kay manong coz' he's shivering. I wanted to go back to the dorm para kunin yung t-shirt ng TESDA just for him to feel some warmth kaso afterwards, a man with huge bags too, went near us (since nasa waiting shed kami both). So i thought, it would be unfair for the other man kung isa lang bibigyan ko ng shirt. (isa lang kasi yung meron ako na tesda shirt). so i chose not to give them both (although parang may kumikirot sa dibdib ko na nakikita silang nanginginig. di ko lang talaga alam papano dapat gawin sa mga times na ganyan - hati sila ng shirt?). So i went back sa loob ng TESDA when suddenly, there was this woman na sumalubong sakin sa pinto agad and ask,

"San ka pupunta?" She said

"Sa Sta.Mesa po sana"

"Wag ka na tumuloy. Hindi maganda lagay ng panahon pati lugar."

"kaso nakapunta po mga kaklase ko, nag-aantay po sila."

"Wag mo na bigyan ng alalahanin ang nanay mo."

Wow. i told myself. she knows that if ever there could be one person who is very concerned with me, it would me my mother. Pero syempre, babae sya at mejo may edad na so probably she feels what a mother feels, that is what i thought nalang kaya nya nasabing wag nang bigyan ng chorva si mama.

Pero nagmatigas ako.

"Thesis po kasi namin. Finals na sa Monday, di pa kami nakakapag-praktis ng presentation po."

at ito ang sinagot nya,

"wag ka na tumuloy. pag tumuloy ka pa, hindi ka na makakapag-thesis."

HUWAATT??? may himig pananakot si ateh eh?

Maybe she saw how i reacted on what she said kaya bigla nyang sinundan ng mga pahayag na:

"kasi tingnan mo oh, madilim ang kalangitan, nagbabadya ang panahon. umuwi kana".

si ateh, katakot talaga. "nagbabadya" daw. matindi pa sya sa PAG-ASA. grabe.

So I thanked her and decided to go back sa dormitory.

Hubad.

Palit damit.

Nuod.

Txt.

lakad-lakad.

higa.

nuod.

txt.

inom tubig.

silip sa bintana.

txt.

Ganyan katensyonado ang araw na yon for me. Oo. Then I called my classmate again telling her that i am going to be very very late.

i ask an officemate if theres any way to go to MRT coz from there, i know it would be easy to travel na. But the thing here is this, so my officemate told me all the possible means but the question is, what if yung mga sinabi nyang means ay impassible din for the jeeps, ets. e kung yung taxi nga, tumanggi na e. anyway, di ako nawlan ng pag-asa.

Bihis ulit.

palit damit.

labas.

nang nasa gate na ko, grabe si ateh kanina, ito ang salubong sa akin:

"Wag mo nang piliting kalabanin ang panahon hija, baka magsisi ka sa huli. umuwi ka na."

"Ahm, Oo nga po eh, tenkyu po te ha, kayo po? di po ba kayo uuwi na at masama ang panahon?"

sabay...

"Oo nga e, ito nga e, susubukan kong lumabas,"

ay si ateh eh?! todo pigil sa akin sya rin pala. hahahahaha

di ko lam kung biglang nawala yung ispiritung pumasok sa katawan ni ateh eh. hahahaha

pero hinabol din naman nya ang mga pahayag na,

"Wag ka na tumuloy. uwi ka na. ako din nga e, di maganda talaga panahon."

That's it.

ginawa ko na magagawa ko para makaalis pero sadyang malinaw ang mensahe, wag na akong tumuloy.

And you know what? thankful ako kasi papano ako makakauwi kung nagkataon. pero i felt guit inside me nung nalaman kong na-trap yung mga kaklase ko sa skul. iniisip ko, dapat isa ko sa nandun e, pero wala, nangyari na eh.

"nangyari na eh."

isang line yan sa script ng play na ipe-present ng grup namin. ang totoo, masama loob ko kasi they've junked my work na parang trapo. they didn't even gave me a chance to express my ideas, laging may blockings na itatapon saken. and i understand why. Pero akin nalang yun. in the end, i realized, only REAL FRIENDS will understand you without judging you, will give you time to explain without stabbing you at the back and will give you advices para maintindihan mo ang situation. thank you CHENNE. You're a good friend.

wala lang, share ko lang ito.

just a simple evidence na God works in our lives. He's in control. we just have to listen to Him and be aware of the angels that He's sending us everyday of our lives.

P.S. Sabi ng isang officemate ko, yung Ondoy disaster daw happened diba, Sept.26, 2009 - 09/26/09 - 969 - recognize something?